Change.....

Isnt it funny how people you think you will be forever close you - seem to drift away. I have recently come to the conclusion that it is inevitable. Recently, I had brunch with my best friend from college - something I was incredibly looking forward to. At the point, there was a lot going on - and she was somebody I could always talk to. But, we got together, and things were different. Im not exactly sure why -(though Im sure part of it, was that I didnt want to share my "stuff" with her boyfriend who came with her) but, she no longer knew what was going on. And, when I think back on the recent months.... whenever i called it took a while for her to call back (if she did) and when I e-mail, it normally takes 2 e-mails before I get a response back. It is times like this that I wonder if I am becoming a nucense (sp?).. Maybe she was trying to cut things with me long ago, and Ive been holding on hope that, really, we havent pulled apart? I dont really know. Its a hard concept to hold on to - and i find myself wondering how much effort I am willing to put into this when I seem to be getting a only a fraction of it back. Since our brunch a little over a week ago, I havent e-mailed her again, and unsurprisingly - I havent heard from her either. Im caught in the "I dont know place", and Im not sure what to do.. I do still love her, and wish that time didnt have to change things.